I'm absolutely shit at this type of thing.
But here goes. One of my lifelong dreams has been to record a full length album, so in ten years, I'd like to have accomplished at least that. I have a multimedia project that I've been working on since highschool and I hope that by then it's actually complete. I would obviously want to have my Computer Science degree, with an honours perhaps in another field, maybe from humanities, maybe visual design, I dunno. It'd be something that I could practically use. I want to be fully independent at the age of 29... Oh crap, I just realised how far that actually is! So yeah, I want to be driving my second fully paid off car, in an apartment that I own, and I'd love to have a stable job and a partner. That's where I'd want to be, I guess.
I guess I'll take it a step further, I'd want to have kept up exercise and good diet enough to not be obese. I want like three more piercings on my face alone. I want to have decided on and have gotten my first tattoo. Uhm, maybe I'd do something funky with my hair. I dunno, the last year of my twenties, I should really live it up. As for where... I always said that I'd like to study locally, work globally... But I dunno. I'd love to be working in the UK. Or maybe somewhere else in Europe. Perhaps even America, more to the north though... Canada is also not out of the question. If I don't end up working or living there, I want to visit all these places before I'm 29.
I would like to speak a third or maybe even fourth language. I've been dabbling in a bit of French and I've always wanted to learn Japanese, but that's purely because I want to watch anime without relying on subtitles. I'd also like to have learned to play a brass instrument. And maybe violin, or cello. I'd definitely want to be a person who didn't give up on music.
Who I'm with? Well selfishly I wanna say my besties from highschool, but I can think of a few who are immigrating in the next three years actually! Haha. So hopefully I won't be alone. I do know that I'd like to meet more LGTBQ persons, hear their stories, and just interact with that community. I can't say I'm exactly a gay rights activist but I am an ally, and I do believe in equal rights.
Lastly, I guess in 10 years I'd want to be closer to my ideal self. I wanna have less sleepless nights, less depressive fits, less nights when I come scarily close to making a noose out of my scarves to hang myself with. I remember, I think it was July in my final year of highschool, I walked out of a physics or a chemistry test. Actually, it started before that. Right as I ended the paper actually. I planned my own suicide in detail. To cut a sad story short, my plan was to compile a playlist of the last songs I'll ever hear, my favourite ones, to overdose on whichever pill would let me go in the most quiet way, and I'd lock myself in my bathroom with a pillow, so I could sit comfortably in the shower with my headphones on. Obviously, I never made it that far. Due to... Well weirdly enough, past me. The year before I was really depressed and I had my first real suicidal thought. So nearly seventeen year old me wrote a two page letter to future me, calling me out on my bullshit, telling me everything I thought other people should have been telling me. That's weirdly how I've been going. I guess I just don't want to disappoint seventeen year old me with the stars in his eyes and the world in his hands. It seems stupid and insignificant now, but when you're there, that final grade basically determines your whole life. If you don't make it, you might never go and study further, or you might have to come back, delay your life for a whole year. I was scared of that. I have this huge thing about failure. And I think highschool sort of beat it into me, where if I don't try, I don't have to feel bad about failing. So I just don't. I study enough at last minute to get by and I scrape through on the bare minimum. In ten years, I want that to not be me. I want to be a more confident, a more mature, and I guess a more emotionally stable person.
Okay, so now that we've gone there and back, I definitely want more onesies, I want to have started cosplaying, I always say I'm going to do it but I never do, and I want to be more open about some things I generally keep to myself. Also, I want the dream PC. Of course. High expectations, 29 year old Matthew.
Anyway, peace out, it's been way too real, and this was day 2. I have to admit, I sort of started this challenge on impulse but the topics are actually kind of fun and I dunno, if anyone else decided to do it I wouldn't be against reading and bookmarking and knowing all your secret details. Jokes, haha.
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