Day 12: An Area Of My Life I'd like To Improve

Everybody wants to improve, right? If you improve, you show yourself you can be better than you were, and therefore become better than you are. It's a process. There's always some aspect you can work harder towards.

Self-discipline is my biggest one, I think.

I'm kind of a cram artist by nature, I started way more often than I finish and I haven't developed the greatest work ethic. Even now, many days behind schedule, I'm still chipping away at this challenge. I try only write when I can give it my best effort, which I think isn't the best tactic. I hate writing bad pieces, and since you'll never have the displeasure of reading some of my discarded drafts, trust me, however bad it is for me to read, it's more painful for me to write.

But bad writing can always be edited, in fact, most good writing is just bad writing someone kept filing down until it was worth a read.

And I also just get severe attacks of the lazies.

I think if I cold better my self-discipline, I could improve my life in a lot of ways. Getting a handle on your person and taking responsibility for your actions is the toughest thing to do. Improving your behaviour is hard. Do-able, but hard.

I want to be a better student, I want to exercise more, eat better, write more, develop more, practice music more. Self-discipline is probably the place to start. I guess I want to be better at being better, and that comes from not just wishing but actively internalizing change. To not just wait for motivation to come. To act better in the present, so that I can in the future lean on my efforts of the past. 

That's the area of my life I wanna improve. Self-discipline.