Day 21: 5 Current Goals

Goals are important. They say a goal not written is a goal that won't be achieved, so here I am, hoping to achive my goals by writing them down, in no particular order:

1. Saving Up For A New Phone

I have a little jar I call Netflix and Bills where I store loose change and as much money as I can afford to save. I started it after my phone (which might be turning a decade old, yikes) notified me that the charging port was damaged. My biggest problem with saving has always been that I always need to dip into those funds, but I've made a personal promise to not do that this time, and I've so far stuck to it.

2. Finishing My First Game (and my Second)

Which I did! And I'll tell you guys all about it soon, promise, but you can find it here and yeah. But the other related goal is finishing a game I have been working on for the longest time, based on the book I wrote (which I would love to one day rewrite). The devlog is also on Gamejolt so you can follow that there, but hey, even though progress is slow, progress is happening. I'm just glad I have a game to my name that I can use as a potential part of my portfolio when I apply for a job one day.

3. 32 Or More Blog Posts in 2018

Which we are very close to hitting, wow. I've never quite managed to top my first year of blogging, which had the most blog posts (although nearly all of them were part of a 30 day Blog challenge, so here I am, hoping to best past me).

4. Graduating Already, It's Time

Yeah, I'm still studying and I look forward to the day I graduate so I can be employed and make a living in this world. Another thing that's going slow but steadily, after this year I'll be most of the way there in credits. So, hey, hold thumbs for me friends.

5. Being Better

Which is an ongoing process but that's what self-improvement is. One of the things it took me the longest time to realize that the void someone leaves when they're no longer in your life isn't because they took anything that was yours. Someone said something really powerful to me; "You ever realize when someone leaves that you're still whole, and nothing really left?"

There was a person I'd been missing that I think I've finally let go of. And it felt like they'd left a hole but now I think I realize that I conflated missing them with missing something inside. I'm a whole person still, and I am doing pretty well, and I'm working towards my goals and laughing and loving, and that's okay. I don't wish that person anything bad, and truth be told I wish them nothing but the best. But I think in life, paths cross and then some don't ever meet up again. I think it's okay to carry on with your road, instead of missing the small patch it cross with someone else's.

But apart from that, I'm working on those bad habits and working at my passions and saving up for better days and sometimes I stumble but I try stay humble.

And like my favourite Veil Of Maya song, Lisbeth, goes,

Hold your place
And just keep still
Remind yourself;
You must fulfill your aspirations.

See you next time, dear reader.